either that, or i'm a nerd.

so i'm feeling better today... but i'm sure that will change once mr. esteban gets up. i don't know why that is. i think it's mainly because i like my space and stuff. i enjoy it. and i enjoy my time alone. love it. love it. so when someone is here, regardless if they look at what i'm doing or not, i almost feel watched over. ya know what i'm saying? like... he could be watching tv and i could be updating this diary, but i still feel like he's watching me and/or that he's here.

i think i just need to live on my own.

he wouldn't mind it either, except he's out of a job right now. so, who knows. i wonder if he'd move home or what. ya know? i almost typed i would love to work from home if i lived on my own. but i really don't think that that's the case. i mean, i would. cause i'd have time to myself and stuff... but i would totally miss the interaction amongst people. that's important to me.

so i think i'm going to lie back today and read some of my what color is your parachute? and try to feel some direction of what i want to do. ya know what i'm saying? and enjoy my time up in my apartment while the roommate is asleep. oh yeah.