i had lunch with little benny and alia. cute kids. they really are. i think i really like ben as a person. i mean, i do have a crush on him and what have you, but he just seems like an awesome person. i don't know it's weird. like you can talk to him about anything and not feel weird or ashamed or anything. or maybe i'm just the uptight type. sometimes i really do feel that way. like, i'm paranoid, and i don't know why. and i think back to my past to think of why i am so paranoid, and i can't really think of any specific thing or things. but anyway, yeah, so ben and alia and i went to lunch. ben actually came in my cube and asked if i wanted to go and then he had me call alia. cause he considers us a "package deal". whatever. but i think a lot of people look at us that way nowadays. no biggie. we're suppose to be heading up to portsmouth this weekend. i think we're seeing the play that coleman is in and then hanging with ben. it's about damn time that this gets into place. it seems like we've been planning it for years.

oh oh oh... this is entry 200 for me. the bicentennial if you will. yippee. go me. and people are still reading me. or at least i'm on fan lists. i feel so loved. so important. yes yes. i am.

what else? oh, i brought in my ron weasley figurine that i bought yesterday. dom that i was a freak. oh well. i don't care. ron's a cutie. so is oliver wood, but of course, they didn't have any of him. damn. heh. maybe i'm just a little too obsessive or something.

anyway, i should probably get going to bed. just wanted to update. and grrr... at isp's.