and yet, i never write them down. i just get to this screen and blank. or decide to tell you what i did for lunch today. or how work went today. or something. now, how exciting is that? especially since the people reading this diary probably work everyday or go to school everyday or something. basically, all i would be doing is saying "see... i'm just like you.. i do the same things".

ah well.

i guess i want more of a discussion. more of a challenge or something. something more than a diary. something with dialogue. and most importantly, to me anyway, something to spark off my interest in writing again. i am not one of these wonderfully gifted writer who can write amazing things at the drop of a hat. i tend to write only when i feel inspired. and i haven't felt inspired in a while. i miss it. dearly.

i think i just need something to channel my energy to. something to focus on. just something.

i feel like i've used the word "something" in this entry more than anyone is allowed to use it during a normal day. oh well.

maybe i'll take a class. i've been looking at some in the boston center for adult education catalog. there are so many classes to take. including... triple your vocabulary. how great would that be. i would love it. theni could feel adequate in having a normal discussion.

trust me, i'm not a moron. i just feel like i use the vocabulary of an eighth grader or something. and it's hard to get my point across sometimes.

anyway, i think that i am going to go read. maybe, at least, i can lose myself in a book.