it's scary as all shit. and now in the back of my mind is the whole... everyone is expecting that nothing will happen tomorrow as far as terrorist attacks, which would make it a perfect time for a terrorist attack to happen. although.... you know... we're in orange alert or something. i don't know. it just crossed my mind today. no one is expecting it to happen because it will be so obvious to do it? i don't know.

i remember everything about last year. everything. right down to the underwear. navy blue victoria secret if you must know. and i never felt so mortal in my life. all i wanted to do was go home and hug my family and tell them that i love them. that's it.

this year, tomorrow, will be interesting. it's going to be weird. like... you don't know how to go about it. do you sit there and talk about it. do you just go about your day. like, what do you do. how is the mood going to be? i suppose everyone will do their own thing. but i'm sure... every American, and every human being in the world for that matter, will think about it.

that's just phenomenal when you think about it. not that i want to give any of the terrorists any credit in the world... but... the world stopped. completely stopped. everything. not many things can do that. and it's so unfortunate that it takes something completely destructive to bring people together. it's sad. and pathetic.

but i think we are a stronger nation now. we looked to each other to help us out when we were lacking. we had our shoulders to cry on. i don't know.

i feel obnoxious and selfish if i don't think about this. and that i don't express it. but it's fine also if you're someone who doesn't want to even think about a thing from last year.

i think that's all that i really want to write for now. i'm sure that i'll write something tomorrow.

God Bless America!!!