i don't think i am anymore.

stephen's watching this thing about september 11 of last year. and i saw the clock say 8:45, change to 8:46 and the plane just about to hit the tower.

i don't think i'm ready anymore.

i thought it was going to be a good sense of closure. and i hope it still will be. but now i feel like i'm going to bawl my eyes out.

how do you get ready for the first anniversary? do you go on your life, being happy that you're alive? do you sit there and cry? do you try to remember everything about last year? do you sing patriotic songs while walking down the street? do you go out of your way to help people?

what do you do? is there any right or wrong? i would think not. who knows. i guess we'll see how everyone reacts on wednesday.

it will be eerie. but overall, i think it will be good. for everyone. for the nation.