it's like murphys law. whatever will go wrong... goes wrong. ugh. does this need to happen at month end? do i suck that bad? apparently so. i nearly cried about 5 times at work today. once in the fax room in front of dom. i just didn't look at him, cause i didn't want him to notice it. so i kinda looked for faxes that i wasn't expecting. and i hate more than anything... the fact that i get stressed at work. i don't think it's worth it. i don't get paid enough. isn't that true heather? ugh. somedays are better than others. this was not a great day. i wasn't even able to do half of what i wanted to do today. so i have my work cut out for me tomorrow. not cool.

i need a kevin drink.

black rose on friday, here we come. you better believe that i will be there. yippee.

also... the dept. holiday party is this wednesday. it snuck right up on us. crazy how things like that happen. i agreed to bring in nachos and salsa and coke. i figure that'll come to like 12 bucks or so. unless i stink. which i may. last year i made cookies. go me. this year i'm doing something decently easy. buy it and bring it. no cooking involved.

so tonight i came home and decided to look for jobs/apts in and around the chicago area. either i find nice neighborhoods with decent jobs, but no place to live. OR i find neighborhoods that aren't great, but have decent jobs and places to live. so who knows. i know chicago is colder than here in winters, but i remember loving chicago when i was out there. loving it. so maybe i'll think about it come march or so. who knows. maybe i can deal with one more new england winter. geesh.

my eyes are tired. i should go to bed.