anyway, today at work was so ugh... and it was mainly done on email.

a conversation with michael.

in which i asked why he hasn't talked to me in a month. i didn't outwardly accuse him. but he didn't think of it as a "big deal" when we haven't talked for a month after talking every night for two months straight. how can you not take that as a big deal? ya know? he's all... "did you ever think that i may be busy and that it's not a personal attack on you?" yeah... maybe for the first week or two... but a MONTH? somethings up.

he refuses to give in. to admit that it's odd. so i did the only thing i could do.

i let go.

cause i can't deal with the frustration he brings me. granted he probably doesn't realize that i "let go". and maybe he's happy that i finally did. but apparently, per our discussion over email today... he considers us to still be friends and whatnot. as though everything is normal. and i don't think it is. cause if it was normal... i'm sure he could have found at least 10 minutes during this past month to call and say hi. but no. nothing. i don't care. but at least admit it. like, don't leave me hanging wondering what's up.

so after every email he sent i'd wipe the tears from the corners of my eyes. and i don't know why i got so emotional about him. i really don't. cause we didn't have anything, really. but it was something, and i wanted to hold onto it. cause who knows when i'd get *something* again.

so yeah. the michael story comes to an end. finally.

i went out with lisa to this sub shop called dom's. i got the sausage, peppers and onions sub. it was pretty good. we ended up just sitting there for 20 minutes talking. or rather... 20 minutes of me bitching to her about my roommate stephen and how bad i need to move out. and how annoying he is. and how it could be my problem internally or a problem with him. so many things. none really got an answer, but at least i vented. and got it out there.

i made an appointment to get my eyebrows waxed tomorrow at elizabeth grady with my favorite, crystal. i couldn't stand to be with rebekah. i didn't like how she did brows at all the time i went to her. ugh. oh well. so crystal, tomorrow, 630. wahoo. yay.