photo courtesy of waterstain
i'm not really happy today... and it's beyond the fact that i'm at work and that there is snow outside. i don't really know what it is, but i get this way from time to time. it's like a slump that i slip into for a couple of days and then i'm refreshed again.
i finished all my work this morning.... so i leaned on the windowsill just watching the snow fall and the wind blow and the few people that are here run to their cars. and i just got a sense of emptiness that i can't really explain. i almost feel like i want to go home and tell my family how much i love them. and i don't really know why. like, i just need a sense of love or something that i really don't feel like i'm getting lately, i guess.
and i really don't feel like i fit into my group at work anymore. they're nice people... great to work with, but i just don't fit in. i don't know if it's me or what... but i just feel awkward. oh well.... hopefully things will turn up soon.
just needed to tell someone.....