i've been overly emotional this week, which means that i feel that i am going to be having my period soon... which is so not a happy thing. i hate when i get this way. everything makes me upset. and i just want to cry. i could so cry right now at the drop of a hat. i hate that. but i suppose it's a female hormonal thing. i wish there were a pill i could take to keep me in balance, ya know?

cause then i get more upset that i'm getting upset, rather than what i'm actually getting upset about. it's just an ongoing cycle i suppose.

not to mention this weather blows i know, there was no segue, but my mind goes pretty quickly into new segs. it was getting upset about stupid things, how it's depressing, and then how the weather just brings it all to a head. it's cold and rainy. it is suppose to be spring, but mother nature has a weird way of showing it.

is it bad to chat with people online about... um... er... you know... stuff. i feel like a stupid school girl. but not just chat about it... like... not cybersex... but just about? is that bad? who knows. i suppose everyone has their thing. maybe that is mine, but i feel kinda skanky or something. i don't know, it's weird.

but whatever... i'm gonna let this message go. i'll pick up tomorrow. wish me luck for weight loss.