photo courtesy of waterstain
and 25 years ago... the blizzard of 78 was upon us. i was 6 months at this time... so i really don't remember. but i was shown when i watched the news tonight. so, so shitty. oh well... that was then...
and here i am... another day... another entry. pretty exciting, eh?
work was alright today. i felt a little active.. but nothing overbearing. i felt like i could handle things. not so much like i have been feeling the last couple days of incompetency.
i was thinking today... my period is irregular. sometimes i get it... sometimes i don't... and lately when i have gotten it... it's been severely strong. like blood clots and stuff. i know that you probably don't want to hear this... or read this rather... so if you don't... just read below the *** thanks. anyway... so where was i... oh yeah... my blood clots when i get my period. yeah. they're really strong. and they get me nervous... but i went online and checked stuff out online... looking up menstruation. and everywhere i read said that it is somewhat normal to have heavy bleeding/clotting at times. so... i figure since it doesn't happen ALL the time that i was safe. yes, i know... very dumb. i shoulda got it checked out before now. anyway... so... since my periods are so irregular... i'm thinking that my hormones might be imbalanced. which may cause some sort of emotional breakdown... possibly. so.. i'm thinking that this may be a reason for how i've been feeling lately. i mean... i'm not BLAMING it on this... but... i think it may have something to do with it. we'll see though... once i see my doctor and stuff. cause i'm FINALLY going to get a referall to a gyno (yes, i know... very dumb for not going until now) and going to ask about counselling. i could go now... but i want to go to someone that i'm referred to. i feel more comfortable that way.
so... here i am ... still.. watching some show on michael jackson in las vegas or something. i think it's 20/20. but i'm really not watching, cause i can't watch him. he's just too freaky looking for me. i can't look at him and take him seriously. but i do find him intriguing. because he's so odd, you can't doubt him. ya know? even if you think he's gross, you have to admit that he's intriguing.
there's a new paller on diaryland. welcome to gretchen! i don't really know her yet. well, i do know who she is, but i don't really know know her. get it? but i'm hoping to soon. she seems to be a good friend to cheryl... so i love her purely for that fact. because cheryl just rocks. and i love her.
it's weird how things work.