the main reason. cause it's pouring out. and i'm thinking, if i just stay a little longer, maybe the rain will end. but i'm in new england, and that will probably never happen. sometimes it rains for days. we're not like nevada where it barely rains or even florida where it rains for like 10 mins and that's it. no. it pours. for long periods of time. so i guess i should just brave the outside and leave.

i also helped the sbc team tonight. adding things and plugging them into a spreadsheet. wahoo. double checking to see that the numbers were right. it wasn't hard. just time consuming. but it happened right at the end of the day, so i didn't have to lock up my accounts and deal with that stress. i just sat here and typed away. and in return, jen, the manager for sbc, gave me a movie ticket to lowes cinemas for two. with medium popcorn and 2 small drinks. i found that to be a nice gesture. considering it kept me back only like 10 mins or so and it saved me from the stress of locking my accounts. i was sad that i didn't get to talk to the blackrock boys.

ha ha... blackrock boys. sounds like backstreet boys. oh maria... i feel bad for you. i hope you get to see your boys sometime soon.

i thought about michael last night. and how weird our little friendship ended. how much it didn't make sense. i still don't get it. i want to know answers, but he isn't giving me anything. and it can be terribly annoying. i mean, i don't care that we don't talk now, but i just don't get it. maybe it's better left unsaid. like it never happened.

do you ever cry over things? just things. things you probably shouldn't. like... michael (for me). and stuff. just stupid things. things that get under your last nerve. i don't know. it happens to me, and i don't know why. maybe i'm just to sensitive.

oh... did i tell you? (i kick ass)

who is the biggest loser that you know? is it me? yeah, i thought so.

anyway, i think i'm going to head out. wahoo! wish me luck swimming home!