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10 Jan 04
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just when you thought that i died... here i am. back again!!!

2003 is over. and i'm pretty glad. only cause it brought closure. it really did. i never look at the end of the year as bringing closure.. but this year it did. 2003 was big for me in many ways. good and bad. lotsa good, some bad.. and i remember it all. i became a different person. one who is stronger, one who feels like i'm worth it.

and now... 2004 begins. so far so good. last year was all about getting my life together as far as health, etc. this year... it's all about the job. and i've come to three conclusions of where it could go.

a. get a new job

b. move away (and get a new job)

c. go back to school

b doesn't really count only cause either way... i'd need a. or c. so basically... do i want a new job or do i want to go back to school?

i really don't know. i wouldn't mind taking classes, though.

er... i signed up for a hip hop dance class which started today. although it didn't really start, becaue the instructor never showed up. :( so there were like 20 people waiting for this guy to show up for a half hour. and there was a no show. supposedly we'll receive a call this week to see if we want to drop out or go to a rescheduled class.

it just irked me cause i was so excited for it and told everyone about it. and now i have nothing to say about it. cause it didn't happen. not to mention i got to walk in boston in the freezing cold weather. brrrrr... so not fun. oh well... i'll let you know how the class actually goes once we have it.

um.... so ww is going well. i did have a gain last week. a big gain. i wanted to cry. it was 3.2. and granted i wasn't doing my best at it. i drank a lot over the holidays... and not to mention that i ate almost an entier large pizza by myself on new years day. so i guess i earned it. but i got right back on track with it this week... i wrote everything down and went to the gym, etc. and, it paid off cause i lost 4.6 pounds. i couldn't believe it. i was stoked. :) that brings me down to 68.4 pounds which i can't even believe that i've done. i truly can't. it's amazing to think of how far i've come. not only that... but last week my leader told me to bring in a before picture. so i did for this class. it was a picture taken last year at this time, when i was down in disney. i even wore the same shirt. :) people were amazed. my leader couldn't even believe it was me. she passed it around the class... so everyone got to see it. people were saying such great things. it made me feel good. i really am truly blessed with it all. i am. that's the only way to explain it. it's weird when people say that they don't remember me when i had all my weight. cause i've had it my whole life. since i ballooned in fourth grade. i was what? 9? somewhere around there. i'm 26 now. so that was 17 years of being heavy. it's just amazing. it really is.

i can talk about weightloss all day. hee. either that or going to the gym. which i will be doing shortly since my class got cancelled. i'm still bummed and bitter about that. but oh well.

so here's to 2004! cheers!

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